I can't explain it.
It's definitely not perfect circumstances
(although I do have to admit that I am very happy to be back home!).
I have this incredible JOY bubbling out of me - so much of the day.
I feel like I could explode with happiness!
First thing in the morning
When I go to bed at night
And many times in between (with definite exceptions!)
My heart is smiling.
I KNOW this is GOD!
He just tickles my heart
and does me good!
Oh, how I love him!!!
He's the BEST!!!
My LIFE, my JOY, the reason I can sing!
(S)he who has a glad heart has a continual feast
[regardless of circumstances].
I've been mostly playing a catch-up game since coming back a month ago.
Getting the house back in order (kind of).
Preparing for home-schooling Shayden next year.
While home-schooling Kylie - and trying to figure out if I should continue with her next year or send her back to school...
Filling up the kids' love cups after very busy months.
And - oh yea - catching up with Rich, too.
Can't forget the wife part - oopsies!
I love being a Mom and find it hard sometimes to be so torn between my kids here and my kids in Africa. Part of me would love to JUST be a wife and Mom and do the very best possible job, nurturing my kids, pouring everything I've got into them, giving them THE BEST.
And then I'd love to be a devoted grandmother, too - of course!
But then - there are my other kids - and pouring myself into the ministry definitely takes away from my kids here. It's quite a balancing act and I'm not always successful.
Up to you to choose which one I am - hehe!
I guess for me it comes down to a justice issue:
Why should my kids have EVERYTHING
and other kids - whose faces I have before me continually -
How are my kids any more special than the thousands and millions that are silently suffering?
Truth is - they're not.
I love them to pieces - but how about those who have NOBODY?
ALL CHILDREN SHOULD HAVE THEIR BASIC NEEDS MET!
And the one who has 2 coats needs to share with the one who has none.
And this is not just materially and financially,
but also TIME.
'Nuf said for tonight.